I have been looking for a job for past 5 months now. Now whats so big deal about it. There are lakhs of youths in India who are doing the same.

I was talking to one of my friends the other day about the job hunt since he too is looking for one. He and I also discussed about another friend who again is looking for a job. The catch here is that all 3 of us have Post Graduate degrees in our fields with some level of industry experience and all 3 are sitting jobless. It made me wonder as to what is the point of attaining these qualifications when we still are in the category of people who are simple graduates or not even that. Why did we put in extra years of our life studying when we are all at par with them. Why this struggle of entering a premier institute, competetive exams, etc etc.

I know this time of not having a job is not going to go on forever and our qualifications defintely will give us an edge over the others, but just a thought that crossed my mind while talking to my friend.

Do you ever think about the purpose of your living? Some mornings, I get up thinking "Why am I living?" What is going to happen with me? Will I also fall into the regular boring routine of life of getting married, having kids, raise them, enter old age and die one day? It seems so predictable. Not that I want to make a difference in this world and then depart. I AM just a regular human being with these questions knocking on he doors of my mind. I think its fun when life has more uncertainities, undecided things, in short - a mystery.

At times, I think what am I doing in this world. What is my identity or individuality. People say that you create your identity by doing well in your profession, whatever it may be. Thats so cliche. And individuality?? Its so lost once you are married because you are busy fulfilling the expectations of people around you.

These days in my life are one of the most exciting ones. Why? Becase I cant see a thing coming my way. I dont know the guy I will be marrying, the job I will be doing or the place I will be at. And I am not talking about long term stuff here. Its all short term. I have learnt to take each day as it comes.

P.S. - The post is more of random thoughts put together. Just another day when I got up thinking - Why am I living?

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